October 22, 2006


  • Mother is in the hospital with renal failure. Don’t know how long she is going to be in there.

    I
    am really scared people. When they got her back, her blood pressure was
    only 64/32. She was severly dehydrated and her potassium levels were
    dangerously low. And now the doc is saying that it’s possibly because
    of the new heart medication that she started taking today.

    I
    am home for just a short while, to let the dogs out and to get a few
    things for my mom and myself. But I’m back off to the hospital. She
    just got out of the ER and she’s in the Tilemetry Unit now. They just
    got her settled and she told me to come home and take care of the
    babies and get some rest. She needs some too. The nurse told me to come
    home and get some rest too.

    But I’m scared. GOD I am so
    scared. It was way to friggin close this time!!!! For the past couple
    months I have been fighting this fear that I would be planning my
    mother’s funeral by the end of the year, and I was sooo friggin close
    to doing it TONIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOT YET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

October 19, 2006


  • Dumping Wushu for a bit again.

    Right
    knee is beyond help for a while. Really crunchy no matter what I do. I
    can just be sitting down and even if it’s just turned towards the
    inside the slightest bit, it hurts like hell. So there is something
    really messed up inside it. Have to keep it straight, or bent at a
    perfect 90 degree angle, or there is PAIN!!!!!!!!!!!! And I’ve been
    having to ice it and heat it quite a bit, and Lortab and Flexaril have
    become my best friends again. And of course, walking on it on concrete
    for 10 hour shifts isn’t helping any, but there isn’t anything I can do
    for it until I get back to the doc tomorrow!!!

    Asthma is back
    out of control again. Going back to see the doc again tomorrow to see
    what can be done about all this crap. Prednisone and Zithromax seem to
    be helping though. So THAT is good news!!!!!!!!! Just HATE the
    Prednisone bloat!!!!!!!! THANK GOD it’s just a short course! Just 4
    more days!!!!!!

    And also all the stuff with my mom. We’ll have to wait and see the results from her blood work. But if she does have the Myasthenia Gravis, it’s not going to be good on top of the Congestive Heart Failure and Restrictive Cardiomyopathy that she was diagnosed with last month. I’m just not going to
    have time for much of anything. Might even have to quit working full
    time and just work part time eventually. Depending on how bad she gets.
    I’m also waiting for our doc to fill out the FMLA paperwork so that I won’t have to worry about taking time off from work to take her to her doctor’s appointments and such. And also in case I get sick as well. And the way my asthma has been acting, it looks like it’s going to be a bad winter for it.

    Just have to wait and see.

    Oh well. I am really starting to think my Wushu days are over.

October 8, 2006

  • Cabo Wabo, Patron, Haerradura, Don Julio, or  Jose Cuervo? Patron and  Herradura!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOW!!!!!!!

August 27, 2006

  • Plane Crash at Lexington’s Bluegrass Airport

    http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/14545437/


    Below is a partial list of victims confirmed by various sources by LEX 18 of the crash of Comair flight 5191 Sunday morning, with ages and hometowns listed when possible:


    Capt. Jeffrey Adam Clay, Burlington, KY (pilot)
    Kelly J. Heyer, 27, Cincinnati (flight attendant)
    Dan Mallory, Lexington
    Leslie and Kaye Morris, Lexington
    John Hooker, 27, and Scarlett Parsley Hooker, 23, London
    Mike Finley, 52, London
    Holly Gilbert, London
    Bobby Meaux, Harrodsburg
    Cecile Moscoux
    Erik Harris
    Bryan Byrd, Richmond
    Judy Rains, Richmond
    Pat Smith, Lexington
    Larry Turner, Lexington
    C.W. Fortney
    Bart Frederick, Danville
    Carole Bizzack, Richmond
    George Brunacini, Lexington
    Charles Lykins, Naples, FL
    Jeff Williams, 49, Lexington
    Page Winters, 16, Shawnee Mission, KS


     


     


    Those in bold were those my family knew


    God speed

August 6, 2006

August 1, 2006

July 29, 2006

  • http://vids.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=vids.individual&videoid=983714062&n=2


    Video of my fat ass doing the first string of the broadsword compulsory. I’m going to start getting some vids of me so I can see how I progress (or don’t). I’ve got to see how I’m doing. I have never taken any vids of me doing any Wushu so I have absolutely no idea how I am doing! And we also do not have mirrors at the school, so I have no clue what I’m doing!! But I’m doing this so I can make a decision if I’m going to keep doing Wushu or not. I’m giving myself 3 months. If I don’t see any improvement, then I’m just going to give it up.


    But this is the first time I had done this form in 9 months. Second weekend of training since the beginning of the year (been unable to because I’ve been very sick). And this is also probably the heaviest weight I’ve been in over 15 years (gained 25 pounds due to having to take prednisone since April) and all the weight is in my middle! I’ve been overweight pretty much all my life, but this is the worst I’ve ever looked. 


    But no excuses. My stances are low and BAD, I am not holding my poses, I’m rushing through it but still slower than a three toed sloth, and I stumbled and also probably did a bunch of otheer stuff wrong. Basically looks like crap!!


    But I’ve got to get that prednisone weight off me! I LOOK DISGUSTING!!!!!!! I’ve looked bad in the past but this is rediculous. So if you do not want to see a walrus doing Wushu, then DON’T WATCH!!!!!!!!


    But Wushu peeps, please comment on it, bad or good. I know that they will mostly be bad (because I suck!), but even that is good because it will hopefully be constructive criticism.


    But just comment on the Wushu please. Not my appearance. I know I’m very overweight, and I know I’ve got to lose weight. So, please no walrus, whale, fatass, or other fat comments. I’m quite aware that I need to lsoe weight. I am constantly reminded every single time I see myself in the mirror or look down at myself. I hear enough of those comments in my own mind.

July 28, 2006

July 23, 2006

  • Went back to work today. Need to get my ass outta there ASAP!!! The shit done hit the fan while I was gone!  They fired 13 people while I was away, and they are not letting ANYONE from my department and shift out of there!  If we are A shift and in the Pick department (and unfortunate for me, I am 2 for 2!), that’s where we’re going to be until hell freezes over! They are not going to let us go ANYWHERE!!!!!!!! SHIT!!! I NEED to get out of there. My mental and physical health depends on it!  Shit, I need to start hunting for another job!!!!


    Me seepy again. *yawn*   

July 21, 2006

  • I go back to work on Sunday. This will be my last weekend where I’m going to have time to do anything. I’m only going to be allowed to work 2 hours Sunday morning. It’s supposed top get me acclimated to working back in the warehouse and also because it’s so friggin hot in there. So I’ll probably go to the school for a little while on Sunday afternoon and work on some more straight sword stuff. I’m going in tomorrow for a little while as well. Just don’t know what I’m going to be doing yet. LOL! Especially since we now have a preliminary Wushu ranking requirements list. YAY! Now I have something to work towards!! It’s just so much easlier to train when you know exactly what you’ve got to work on and vcan set some goals!!!