Ever have one of those days where all you want is to be left alone and that’s the day that everybody and their brother decides to want to bother you the most?
hey girlie.. thnx for the comment.. its tough because i am the type of person that is also a perfectionist.. i dont like to do things half ass.. and i dont like to be bad at things.. at the same time i know i cant be great or even good at everything. its just crazy for me to finally realise im not going to go anywhere with wushu… and its been kind of a motivation killer for me.. and i dont know how to snap myself out of it. its really been kind of numbing to me… i always am the type of person to try and defy the odds.. because honestly thats all i know how to do.. since i was born. (with my surgeries and all ) so now that i know that im not going to defy all odds with wushu no matter how much i try.. where do i go from here? so what do i really want to do? how do i get to where i want to be.. and where is it that i want to be?? i just am wierded out by the whole thing.. cuz im not sure how to handle it… and not sure why i all of the sudden have a bad taste in my mouth.. ya know.. its crazy dude.. crazy..
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hey girlie.. thnx for the comment.. its tough because i am the type of person that is also a perfectionist.. i dont like to do things half ass.. and i dont like to be bad at things.. at the same time i know i cant be great or even good at everything. its just crazy for me to finally realise im not going to go anywhere with wushu… and its been kind of a motivation killer for me.. and i dont know how to snap myself out of it. its really been kind of numbing to me… i always am the type of person to try and defy the odds.. because honestly thats all i know how to do.. since i was born. (with my surgeries and all ) so now that i know that im not going to defy all odds with wushu no matter how much i try.. where do i go from here? so what do i really want to do? how do i get to where i want to be.. and where is it that i want to be?? i just am wierded out by the whole thing.. cuz im not sure how to handle it… and not sure why i all of the sudden have a bad taste in my mouth.. ya know.. its crazy dude.. crazy..