I really got a hard workout in tonight! I did Wushu for a little over an hour and a half and then Brian trained me for about a half hour. And I didn't go half ass either! I really went all out on quite a bit during my Wushu class. I'd been trying to take it easy all the other times I'd been there since I went back, and I did a hell of a lot more in wushu than I had, and then I did my weight training on top of that!! Yep, I'm going to be sore in the morning!! And my knees are aching now, but I think it's because I did so much. And I also landed hard on my right one while we were working on nanquan stuff, but I think it's going to be ok. Just need to put some ice on it and chill out for the rest of the night. Learned quite a bit tonight too!! I was shocked!!

Well, I'm sore as hell from my weight training and Wushu. But at least it's good pain!!!

I'm poor, ugly and lonely. And not many people have all three of those things going against them now. I envy so many people right now. A lot of people I know have so much that they take for granted. Girlfriends/boyfriends, good jobs, they are at least halfway decent looking. I wish I had somebody to talk to when I needed them. And no matter what I do to try to improve my financial situation, it seems that every step forward turns into 3 steps back. And I don;t have the money to even take care of myself properly or at least like I would like to!! I can't afford to go to the gym, I can't afford to eat right, I can't even afford to even get my fucking hair cut anymore!!! And my health is for shit!!!

Grilled chicken and salmon marinated in raspberry chipotle sauce. MMMMM!!!

YAY!! I get to go do Wushu again tonight!!! YAY!!! My legs are still sore from Tuesday, but I'll live!! I'm just glad to be back into training again, and I really hope that nothing gets in the way of my training again. I really missed it!!!

And I can't wait til the end of April!! If all goes well, then my friend Birgit will be in Indianapolis from Germany!! It will be so nice to finally meet her. And if all goes well, I'll also be seeing another friend of mine who I haven't seen since September!!! YAY!! I miss him!!! But I'm going to have some fun!!!

Well, did Wushu last night. Did a light workout and did ok. It's kinda weird doing anything on the new floor though. We've got a puzzlemat floor down now and your foot sticks to it. LOL! Hard to do sweeps on it without it feeling like it's going to torque your knee or ankle!! And since I was still getting over pneumonia, I took it easy for that too. But my legs are sore but I'm going to be ok! Feels good! I just really hope that all my illnesses and injuries are over now. I want to compete this year!! I miss it!!!

Another day from hell!! It wouldn't have been so bad except that the nurses that were there to take care of the patients didn't know what the hell was going on!! The man I was with today was an old man who had just had a colostomy bag put on yesterday. For those who want to know what a colostomy is it is an artificial opening on the abdominal wall through which waste material passes out of the body from the bowel. And the bag is the what the waste is collected into. And this bag is attached to the abdomen like a plastic tupperware lid. And this man's bag kept opening on him whenever he tried to sit up! So needless to say, he was crapping on himself all day long and the nurses and nurses aids took FOREVER to help clean him up!!! And it was very difficult to keep him from sticking his fingers in the mess and poking around the opening for the colostomy! He was poking his fingers right into his intestines!!!! And to make matters worse, he was very confused and he kept on trying to get out of bed so that he could see what was going on because he didn't know where he was!!! They HAD restraines on him to keep him in bed, but they took them off. And then his IV alarm kept on going off because his IV drip ran out and it took the nurses 2 hours to replace that!! Usually there are 2 nurses and 2 nurses aids on each wing, but today they had that PLUS 5 student nurses and their instructor and they STILL couldn't take care of this patient!!! Things usually run a hell of a lot smoother than this with LESS staff!!! And to top things off, when it was my time to leave at 3pm, NOBODY REPLACED ME!!!! I left a half hour late and the nurse (who basically sat on her ass all day long!!) finally told me that I could leave when SHE FINALLY came in to help clean him up!! She had been there since 7am this morning, but this was the FIRST time, at 3:15pm, she had been in the room to take care of her patient!!! I am considering reporting her.

UGH!! I need a drink but first I need to jump in the shower and wash that smell off me. I never touched it but it just seeps into your nasal cavity and your clothes!!!!

Well, I went to work today but was sent home after an hour and a half because the patient I was with didn't need anybody to stay with her anymore. she was doing well enough on her own. So I left and went to turn in my time sheet, and when I was there, the hospital called and asked if they had anybody to work tonight from 11pm-7am, so I took it. Might as well!! I'm feeling much better and chances are that I won't be with anybody really difficult... I hope!! LOL!

Glad that I'm feeling better though. Still have that nasty dry cough and the inside of my chest, throat and nose are all dry and irritated. I hate that. I hate not being able to laugh or take a deep breathe in without having to cough my lungs out. But at least I can breathe again!! I hate pneumonia!! But I'm getting over it. Thank God!! I hate being sick!! This has been one of the worst cases of pneumonia I've had in a while!! I'm getting out of Kentucky! I bet if I went to Florida or somewhere out west, I wouldn't have all this trouble!! I just need to hang on until next spring! That's how long I'm giving myself to get the fuck out of Dodge!! Get my CNA license and move away!!!

I wish I would get better already. I'm getting tired of being sick!!

I'm really getting tired of getting sick.